Hello beauties! Recently I’ve had a bit of an epiphany, especially regarding blogging. I hope you guys are okay with this being a wordy post, and if not, I’m asking you to read as far as you possibly can because I think this message is really important for every person. I’ve been thinking long and hard lately about the current status of this blog. A lot of my time is spent stressing about getting a blog post up. Guilt racks my brain knowing posts aren’t going up in a consistent order. I think guilt when it comes to posting is fairly common in this community and I really want to talk about that today. Another topic I’d love to cover is being shy in front of a camera, feeling like someone is silently judging you, and attempting to be completely and utterly yourself. I’ll split this post up into two different sections so if you’d like to read one or the other that’s cool too!
Quality Over Quantity
Consistency has always been on my mind regarding my blog. I’ve never been good at it and it always seems like something I’m chasing to master. I’ve attempted the: Just get a post up on a specific day, at a specific time, even if you don’t love the content. I don’t think this is a mindset that works for me. While I still agree some sort of consistency is vital for a successful blog, I want MORE for this passion of mine. I don’t want to simply throw something up because the time of day is demanding it. I want to create something I’m proud of and something I want to share with people in my actual life. Throughout these four years of my blog, I’ve kept it relatively quiet. It isn’t until recently that I started to reach out to other people in my life and most have been extremely receptive and supportive!
I’ve felt myself recently coming up with ideas for a post just because it was doable and something I could get up quickly. I’d even get a bit bored of myself and these ideas! If I don’t want to read my own posts, how can I expect anyone else to? If I want this to become more than just a hobby some day or add even more meaning to my current career, I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I want to spend time on being creative and let go of the mindset that this is possibly a waste of time. So many people might believe it is a waste of time, but I don’t ever want to take that to heart. The post you’re currently reading came from one of my personal writings. Here’s a little excerpt: “Your job matters, but so do your passions. They light your fire! New goal: be SO incredibly proud and happy with my own content to the point where I’m my own subscriber.” From now on I want to spend more than a few hours making a post. I went to spend genuine time creating content, key word CREATING and completely without limits. Having fun with blogging again only making things for my own happiness and satisfaction is what I want to strive for.
Self Consciousness & Photography
One of the most important (and at times, most fun) parts about blogging is the photography! Especially someone who has lived with a creative mind, photography has always brought my posts full circle and essentially brought them to life! However, at times it can be one of the hardest aspects about being so active online. Sometimes I don’t particularly enjoy being in front of the camera, however if I’m planning an OOTD, this is kind of unavoidable. Just like anyone else I have good and bad days especially when it comes to photos of myself.
Whenever I ask someone to take a photo of me in a public place, this is especially where my anxiety comes in. You can’t help but let little thoughts sneak in like: “I really hope no one is looking at me taking this photo” or “I hope no one thinks I’m weird while I’m doing this.” What I’ve come to lately though is: WHO CARES?! If you enjoy something and its adding something positive and significant to your life, forget anyone else who throws negativity your way or tries to downgrade your success. Being unapologetically YOU matter so much and I believe it will bring you the most rewards. What if you put all of your energy into this? What greatness could become of it? Another little line I wrote out was: “Prove them wrong by being consumed in your own happiness.”
These are just a couple things specifically related to blogging that I’ve been thinking about lately. I hope it helped even one of you in any way because I don’t think I’m alone in any of these thoughts (or at least I hope I’m not!) Comment down below if you’ve ever had these thoughts cross your mind and how you’ve dealt with them. Let’s get a positive and effective conversation going!