Hi everyone! I hope you’re all doing well during this uncertain time. I honestly don’t really know where to start with this post except for how I’ve been feeling through all of this. Confusion, hope, anger, annoyance, love, appreciation, and an overwhelming sense of “how did we even get to this place so damn fast?” It’s been a whirlwind of emotions between good and bad days. But I know I’m not alone in this. As some of you know, I’ve been very active on Instagram since the quarantine, which has been a huge blessing to have the time to work on my passion. I’ve mentioned how I’m currently staying with my parents and sister in my childhood home. I feel very lucky to be staying somewhere safe with food, cleaning supplies, wifi, Netflix, Hulu, and of course enough toilet paper (we haven’t been hoarding don’t worry). However, that doesn’t mean there hasn’t been days that I’m scared or lonely or so extremely bored. I want to talk about that with you guys today and how I’m finding ways to persevere past that and focus on a future after this ends, even if that future looks very different from a few months ago.
Just like so many of you reading this, things have definitely changed for me financially. While I have been very careful with my income and I know everything will be taken care of because of that, I am still under some stress that I wasn’t experiencing a month ago. I am one of those people that fixates on my stressors. I could easily sit around all day, dwelling on my worries and being consumed by my anxiety to take care of what is going awry. It’s an obsessive behavior that isn’t healthy or productive. Throughout my adult life I’ve identified that within myself and the best way to combat this for me is staying busy. I need to occupy my mind every hour with things that make me happy in order to avoid obsessing over things I simply can’t control right now. Sure, I’ve definitely spent my time job searching, reaching out to companies, or offering freelance work. This is something effective that you can do to help yourself. But spending every minute of everyday thinking about what’s going wrong is not good.
I’ll admit I definitely get down about this situation we’re in. I finally had my amazing apartment in a stunning beach community with the sweetest roommate, a beyond supportive boyfriend, and a job in my field. I was finally reaching towards a life I wanted (given some bumps in the road) but all of that has come to a screeching halt and I’m back at home. To say the least I have my discouraging days but I know all of that will fall back into place with God’s help and His alone. To avoid these harmful thoughts about this reality, here’s some things I like to do to keep myself occupied, productive, and most of all hopeful:
• Go on walks/runs with my family around the neighborhood. Keep social distancing measures in mind.
• Spend time in the backyard (or anywhere near your home that gets some sun). I’ve been enjoying some me time reading and tanning in the backyard. I personally feel a lot happier after I’ve gotten some Vitamin D.
• Facetiming with friends and my boyfriend. This one seems like an obvious one, but I’ve finally had more time to focus on my friendships. When I worked full time, I easily got caught in the 9 to 5 life and I was so exhausted after work I just wanted to chill out and be alone all week. Building upon friendships outside of work wasn’t high on my to-do list because I simply felt too overwhelmed. I’m grateful for this time to check in on those I care about much more often!
• Take baths and do face masks! Running a bath has always been one of my favorite things to do to relieve stress. Ever since I first starting dealing with anxiety, this was the #1 thing I was recommended to do and I still love it! Self care helps turn around any bad feeling.
• WORKOUTS! I’ve been getting back into my old routines when it comes to floor work and toning. About a year ago I was extremely into fitness and creating a healthy lifestyle. I’ll admit I’ve fallen out of that but quarantine has given me the perfect opportunity to get back into my groove!
• Go on drives! I recently went on a drive up PCH with my boyfriend. We drove through most of the cities in Orange County on a sunny day. It was stunning driving next to the ocean which brings me so much peace. We brought snacks, coffee, and listened to a playlist he had put together. We ended up parking in Corona Del Mar to take a break from driving just to talk and take in the scenery. You’d be surprised how doing simple things like this will help your sanity. P.S. don’t forget your gloves and masks just in case!
If there’s anything I left out from this list, please comment your tips below! I’d love to know what you guys are doing. I know these months have been extremely difficult for everybody. It’s really crazy that every person on earth is experiencing the exact same thing right now. That is quite rare in history, but how we respond will speak volumes to future generations. To those of you who are abiding by social distancing rules and thinking about the lives of others: THANK YOU! You are the reason this will all pass and I’m right there with you. To those who are protesting: STOP. Let’s think of others shall we?
Now is a great time to dive into what you love. Wanting to start that blog? Spend some hours writing! Dying to film that first YouTube video? Try recording your first clips! Is there a book you’ve been wanting to read for a while? It’s okay to spend some time relaxing and reading. Even though it sucks to stay indoors, try to take advantage of this down time and really invest in yourself. When is an opportunity like this ever going to happen again? God willing, it won’t ever happen again so now is the time to pounce on those things you’ve been putting off. I know I’ve been trying to have this mentality and I feel I’ve grown because of it. The past year I focused so much on work, furthering my career, and having a successful and meaningful life after college. But I lost myself in that. I allowed myself to feel guilty if I wasn’t writing a blog post, taking photos for Instagram, or not researching marketing techniques for my job. No one should feel guilty for doing things they enjoy or taking care of themselves. This is stress I put on myself and still struggle with, but quarantine is forcing me to slow down and let God take care of it. I can’t tell you how hard this is for me but I’m learning and trying my best everyday. That’s all we can ever do.
If you’re having a rough day through this or need some encouragement, please feel free to reach out to me! My DM’s are always open on Instagram and that is the quickest way to reach me. I’ll talk to all soon! xx